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The MirrorOnce, a man looked into a mirror, and saw his reflection.
The man looked in to the mirror, and what he saw terrified him. His reflection was a skeleton, the face an emaciated, zombified shell of a life lived in sin and in hardship.
The man looked into the mirror and saw a waste. Wasted chances, wasted promises, wasted looks, wasted talent, wasted words, wasted lives uncountable.
The man looked into the mirror, and screamed. The hideous twisting snakes of medusas tomb writhed from the empty, shiftless skull.  A skull bleached by a thousand days, a skull bitten clean by the shifting mass o The Mirror
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Shadows and DustShadows and dust,
Surround our lives,
From whence we've come,
We shall return again,
No escape,
Rotting corpses dot the landscape,
A reminder of our mortality
In our death throes,
We whisper a madrigal,
For ourselves,
Of ourselves,
A lament of sadness and pain,
A wasted life,
A regret,
A betrayal,
No romance left,
No strength left to carry on.
That madrigal is all we can sing,
To console ourselves,
O Shadows and Dust
by ~Nickwins89

Splatter ArtSplatter the body in cold metal,
Smear the canvas with oil,
Brush the pain away,
Use the brush like a whip,
Make the mark,
Scar the skin,
Dig into paper,
Carve the canvas,
Bleed paint from every pore,
Leave the reservoir dry,
Mark the place,
Where the pain left,
From the pain of those behind you,
Create your Picasso,
A gnarled image appears,
From the darkness of your heart,
From the light of the medium,
Comes your salvation. Splatter Art
by ~Nickwins89

HatredWhen all hope is lost, when everything you've ever loved disappears, when everything you had crashes around you, when everything you've dreamed of turns to nightmare, When all you have left is that burning ember of hatred and determination smoldering inside you, then you are ready to face the world.

You are the Phoenix.

You are the stranger on the road.

You are the phantom in the night.
You are the mystery.

You are all that's left.
You stand amidst the ruins of society ready to rebuild what was once beautiful. Hatred
by ~Nickwins89

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A New Beginning

Mon Sep 21, 2009, 11:41 AM

Well DeviantArt, it's been quite some time since updating this here journal. Many things have changed, but some things still remain the same. I am back at school and have been enjoying myself very much. There are still some things and some people here which worry me, but overall it has been such an uplifting experience having my friends around and being back in class. There are so many new people here and so many things I want to do. I am so excited.

My summer ended with a great trip to New York City and Chicago with a close friend of mine, and I took almost a thousand pictures. It was fucking amazing. I plan on living in Chicago some day. It is such a fantastic place to see. Because of school I haven't found the time to upload the photos yet but I will try and make a little time to sift through and find the best ones.

I will try to work on some more poetry and new photos, but with so many things to do here, it's hard to find the time.

Once again, to those of you who are reading this, Thanks for caring.

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I am an amalgam of forces pulling in opposite directions. I want to live my life for myself, and only myself, and take everything from other people and never give back. I want to be a selfish, greedy bastard who cares about no one. But I want to live only for others. I want to give my life to charity and volunteer for the good of mankind. I want to rip my heart out and give it to you. I want to love you with everything my body could have to offer and more.

At this point in my life my dreams have all been shattered. These dreams will one day be reborn, but in a different form. A smaller, less innocent and beautiful form. The "what-ifs" of my life tear me to pieces every day.

My mind pulls me in opposite directions. I want to trust people and believe every word, but I can't help but criticize and be callous towards others. I have a love of photography, and writing, and reading, and loving. I just wish I had a chance to experience these things more.

I am an intense person. My passion for subjects could fill volumes and volumes in a library. I can talk for days on end about obscure Roman architecture and miniscule quantum particles and abstract math concepts. My mind is filled with useless information multiplied into infinity.

I desire confidence and strength, and the power to change other people's minds. I desire happiness and love. There is nothing in this world I would love more than a kind word and a warm hug.

In a way I am happy, but at the same time, I am horrifically depressed with where my life has led me. I constantly strive to be good, but in the process I have sacrificed so much to other people.

Devious Info

Current Residence: Massachusetts
Interests: Music, History, Science Fiction, PC Gaming, Writing
Favourite movie: Blade Runner
Favourite band or musician: Opeth
Favourite artist: Edward Hopper or M.C. Escher
Favourite poet or writer: Kurt Vonnegut Jr.
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: Winamp
Favourite game: Half Life
Favourite gaming platform: PC
Favourite cartoon character: Samurai jack
Personal Quote: When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad. That's my religion.
Tools of the Trade: My eyes, my ears, my heart, my mind.